Tuesday . April 23 . 2002 . 10:24pm |
angst Today I went in for rounds at 6:30am and had nothing to do the rest of the day. I was supposed to go to Audiology Clinic in the morning with Chris, but when we showed up, they clearly had not been expecting med students (though supposedly we've been coming by the whole year) and told us there was no room for us to hang out, basically. Fine with us. We left. Then, this afternoon, the OR case I was supposed to scrub in on was cancelled. Instead, I just watched the tail end of a tonsillectomy and went home. Earlier that morning, I fell asleep in the back room of the student lounge, waiting for the start of Audiology Clinic Hours That Were Not To Be. I have no idea why surgeons love to start so early in the day. It must be some kind of old-school masochistic thing. On medicine, we didn't have work rounds until 8:00am, which seems like a much more sane time to start the morning. The rest of today, I ran errands. Went to the Dean's Office to talk about career planning. E-mailed various attendings about next year. Did some research about residency programs. I'm still seriously considering Ob/Gyn, so much so that I'm working on switching my entire elective schedule around for next fall. I suppose that I realize at this late juncture that I really want to engage in a field where I get to do procedures. I don't know if that's a product of going to a school so enamored of the surgical sub-sub-sub specialties, but I want to give myself a chance to have some OR time in my career if that's what will really make me happy. Peds? Medicine? Ob/Gyn? What do I want to do with my life? I wish I knew. xo Michelle |
